I am back at it again. Sad to say, but I am actually looking forward to the efforts this time around. Does that sound ridiculous? I don't! I was proud of myself while I was away. I had determination, dedication, true effort and most importantly, true results. I pushed hard, worked out a lot and ate a lot less. I'm not too sure where or even how things got messy again. Being unable to post and missing out on the others posts truly took a tool on the efforts that I had previously dedicated. This makes me very frustrated with myself.
Thankfully I have found the distorted path that, quite frankly, I enjoy and hate all at the same time. I love the way I feel when I am able to stay focused and force control upon myself. I have always loved the saying, "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!" I do not think that any true human would deep down and true heartily disagree with that statement. And if they did, well, then it is clear they are not human!!
I know myself. And many others would agree that, I am one to start something full force and allow for slow retract. For once, I want the will power to be about follow through with my plan, my goals, my wants and desires. It sounds so easy - but it is not easy at all! Things that I am starting to dread include: Calorie goals. Workout goals. Temptations. Disbelievers. Who wouldn't start to dread these things! It is overwhelming!!
Secret social networking sites are definitely going to be my friend this time around. Of course it is the new year and everyone is posting nutritional meals and everyone is dedicated to their weight loss goals.. at least for this month. I would like to how many of these people are still focused come March. I would bet that many will be nowhere near what they wished for themselves. That will NOT be me. Then again, this isn't just another New Year's resolution. When it comes to the calorie counting and workout obsessions, I know that it becomes overboard. Calculating each and every single bit, sip and even stare in food directions because highly obsessive and quite compulsive! But how else would I become accomplish.
My shoes are tied tight, my pants feel too tight and I am ready for this rollercoaster that I know will become a complete whirlwind given time. I'm ready. I'm back. And this is going to be the be all and end all! I hope! So friends, who is behind me? Who will be here to pull me back up after a terrible binge day or the days that I have no desire to continue to my goal. I hope you are. I hope I can count on my other Ana believers. I have started my following in twitter, reading more blogs, ready more true life books and allowing myself for tips from all directions! Let's go!
I'm ready..
